Suddenly, I viddied what I had to do, and what I had wanted to do, and that was to do myself in; to snuff it, to blast off for ever out of this wicked, cruel world. One moment of pain perhaps and, then, sleep for ever, and ever and ever.
疯子=极度自私.And just find out that i could not be a cop ,but might be a soldier,coz i am not be sure whether i could control my emotion and not lost my mind...